Friendship

Good morning, good afternoon, good night, good midnight, good blah blah blah

Seriously these few days I just wish I could kill myself for some good reasons.

Or perhaps I could kill somebody else. Hehe.

      Things have gone bad for me this week. Thinking of friends that you thought can be the place to cry on just throw you up makes me feel horrible. I really rely on them so much. And I realized that I'm the one who throw my old friends away, just to be with them. I'm not saying that they're bad or something. They're good indeed. But I just remembered of the old friends that I used to be with, that are by my side, before I left them out. 


      And now, literally, I have no more friends, and I come back to them. But the feeling...it's..weird. I seemed like I just killed one of them cause all they do is trying to avoid me. They blamed me on things, but I know it's my fault. I deserved it.


      But then I continue to be myself, and try to reconnect the relationship that I've destroyed. And they're receiving me now. I'm glad. I'm so glad. Now I can see a smile on each of my friends faces, which used to be a frown towards me. I learned a thing, that a real friend will be there for you. And to the friends that I'm talking about now, I'm so glad to have you guys. I promised I would be the best for all of us, and thanks. Thanks for being my friend.

These whole thing reminds me of what my mum ever said to me, "Just be friends with everyone. You won't know when you'll need them". Thanks mum, I've seen the point now. And I've seen a light..of friendship