~Nothing But The Dark~
Nothing but the dark.
When blind eyes don't see.
For so long I could...
But I just couldn't believe.
It was that part of me,
That lingers, haunting me at night.
The part that can see,
Laughs as I cry.
Yet...
I am still blind.
Chapter :: 1
That day.
May 13th, 2009.
It changed everything.
Ruki, the acclaimed lead vocalist of The GazettE, was perfect in the eyes of most fangirls. He was a little on the short side, but was sexy, even so. He currently had his hair frosted a sort of dirty blond for thier latest The Invisible Wall video. And his skin was flawless, as was the standard for Visual Kei bands. He wore a deplorable amount of eyeliner, but it suited him. And his eyes...
They changed with the contacts he wore. Most of the time, in thier music videos, his eyes were a bright, chilling pool of blue glassy water. Even he took pride in his eyes when they were like that.
When he wasn't shooting a music video, however, his eyes tended to be a darker blue. He still liked them, and thought they were seductive enough to catch any girls eye.
He never thought he'd miss the sight of his eyes so much.
It had been a hot day in the crowded Tokyo on the day when it began. He began to get very dizzy, and his vision was blurry. He was lucky Reita had been with him otherwise he probably been very banged up when arriving to the photoshoot they had been heading to.
Of course, he still went to work. He loved work. It was a dream come true, for many people. And he most definitely loved his fans.
The flashing lights of the camera's hadn't exactly helped that day. It had made the dizzyness worse. So much worse that Uruha had to drive him to the hospital after the shoot just because his vision to blurry to see anything.
They both had sat in the emergency room for God knows how long...
And then he couldn't see anything.
He closed his eyes for only a second, sighing as he was knew how tired he was and tired of watching the picture on the wall swirl around in circles. Yet, when he opened his eyes, it was pitch black.
"Uruha?" He had asked.
"Yeah?" Uruha sighed.
"Why are the lights off?" Ruki was panicked.
"Lights off?" Uruha laughed. "You've lost it, Ruki. The lights aren't off."
"What do you mean they aren't off?" Ruki felt like hyperventilating, then. "I can't see!"
"What?" Uruha's voice was agitated, now, too.
"I can't see!"
That was the day. That was May 13th, 2009.
It had all happened so fast, it was hardly even a memory now. He didn't know how it happened, but when he asked the doctor, the advanced physician told him carefully.
"Glaucoma." The old white-haired man said. "It's the second leading cause of blindness in the world, behind diabetes. It's a disease in the optic nerve, and happens when you lose too many retinal ganglion cells in a pattern. When you have high eye pressure, Glaucoma occurs. I'm afraid you had quite a high eye pressure, so your symptoms occured faster. Tell me, Matsumoto-san, when was the last time you got a check up?"
"I don't know." Ruki shrugged. "I can't remember."
"Ah." The doctor nodded. "That's a very bad thing. It seems your Glaucoma is more advanced than I've seen in my entire career. If you would've gotten it treated sooner, this might not have happened to such an extent."
"Can you fix it?" Uruha asked from the corner.
The doctor shook his head.
"Can you?" Ruki urged, unable to see the old man.
"Matsumoto-san, I am afraid the damage cause by Glaucoma is irreversable. Incureable."
"What?" Ruki demanded. "So...I'm going to be blind for the rest of my fucking life?"
"I am afraid so." The doctor sighed.
Ruki shook his head slowly, unable to believe it.
He was going to be blind. Forever...
XxxxxxxxxxxxxxX
Aoi sauntered into the room with a smile on his face. Uruha and Reita were on the couch in Kai's appartment with thier girlfriends at thier side as they watched Reita's favorite movie, again.You'd think they'd get tired of Face Off.
"Aoi-san!" Yukie, Reita's woman, waved excitedly.
"Hey, Aoi." Uruha mumbled.
He seemed like he was tired of the movie, but Kimiko was more than excited to watch it over...and over...and over.
Stupid guys. Getting pushed around by thier women like that. It was sad, and demeaning.
Then again, maybe that was why he never had a girlfriend.
Ruki walked into the room, scratching the back of his head and yawning. He had moved in with Kai for a little while, because Kai wouldn't allow him to live alone just yet.
Lord knows what Ruki would do to himself in this state.
"Hey, Ruki!" Aoi yelled loudly.
"Ow!" Ruki covered his ears. "Aoi, damn it, I'm blind! Not deaf!"
"I know, I just like scaring you." Aoi snickered. "Where's Kai-Kai-kun?"
"Kitchen." Ruki yawned before walking over to the couch.
He put a hand on Reita's head, and Reita looked at him weird as Ruki smirked and fell on top of him and Yukie.
"Hi." Ruki stretched out, making himself comfortable on Yukie's lap.
"Ruki, what the-"
"Be nice, Reita." Yukie ordered. "He's sick."
"Yeah, Rei-chan." Ruki smirked. "I'm sick."
He practically purred as she petted his head like he was a cat.
"Pathetic." Aoi rolled his eyes.
He then walked into the kitchen, grabbing an apple off the counter as Kai worked on breakfast.
"What's up?" Aoi waved with a mouthful of apple.
"Hey, Aoi." Kai nodded to him. "Cooking."
"Of course." Aoi sighed. "Always cooking. Listen, I have a plan."
"Oh, yay." Kai grimaced. "What is it now? Please don't tell me you're going to chain Ruki up with fluffy handcuffs like last time..."
"That was just a suggestion." Aoi chuckled with a smirk. "But this one's much more logical. Just like you, Kai!"
"Fine." Kai sighed. "Tell me."
"Okay, okay." Aoi rubbed his hands together evilly. "So, here it goes. You think Ruki's all depressed and might hurt himself if he's left alone in his appartment, right?"
"Point?" Kai raised an eyebrow.
"Well, what if we get him a girlfriend?" Aoi smiled triumphantly. "Then he wouldn't be so depressed. He'd get laid at least a couple times a week. And she could watch over him."
"Aoi, that's..." Kai began. "Not a bad idea. But how do you plan on making this plan work?"
"I don't know." Aoi shrugged. "There's that one girl from PSC that was practically in love with him."
"Miyuki-san?" Kai bit his lip. "I don't know. She's too nice..."
"Exactly." Aoi grabbed Kai's shoulders. "She's way sweet. And she wouldn't let Ruki be sad even for a moment! And then all our problems would be - poof - out the window! And we could finally go on that tour."
"Ugh." Kai sighed. "I guess you're right."
"Besides, I'm sure Miyuki-chan has a nice friend for you, Kai-kun." Aoi snickered.
"No, Aoi-" Kai stopped. "Wait. Is this about that girl you've been crazy about for damn near three years? What was her name...? Ayame? Isn't she Miyuki's friend?"
"May-beh." Aoi shrugged. "No possible idea. Well, I'm gonna go get Ruki dressed! We're going to drop by a work for a little."
"Aoi, you don't need to dress me." Ruki walked into the kitchen with a grimace, reaching in the fridge and taking out the orange juice before chugging it from the carton.
Aoi was surprised he knew where it was.
"I can dress my damn self." Ruki said as he threw the empty carton into the trash. "Where we goin'?"
"Work." Aoi patted the vocalists shoulder.
"Why?" Ruki groaned. "Am I not on sick leave?"
"So?" Aoi shrugged. "I've gotta go sign some contract, and I don't wanna go alone! So I have picked my favorite Ruki to go with me!"
"I'm your only Ruki, dumbass." Ruki sighed. "Fine. I'll go. But only because Kai's house is boring."
"That's the spirit, Shorty - I mean - Ruki!" Aoi quickly corrected.
Ruki growled. "Don't even think about it."
"Yeah, yeah." Aoi rolled his eyes. "Just go get dressed."
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