Ne.. I've joined boarding school, which have made me busier day by day.
One of the reasons I joined it because, for me it's the only reason to rid you out of my mind.
I hate dorm. I really hate it.
But it's the only way to get rid of your image.
I try to enjoy my life here, without noticing that day by day I started to miss you again.
Damn it. 5 months have passed and I'm still stuck in the same image.
And you. You must be happy right now.
Being beside your true love, being with your dream.
But me, this dump girl, still thinking of you.
Just let me see your face and I think I'll be ok later.
And by then I probably won't remember who you are.
We both are happy with our decisions.
I am happy. I am.
But somehow
I hate to say this but
I miss you.
I miss having you back
But I do know,
That first love never dies. It never dies at all.
You should be with her.
You should be.
We are different, way too different.
Even if I own you now, I know I'll lose later.
So yeah, it's better to lose earlier rather than loving more and lose more later.
You should be happy. You should
I think its me who's missing too much
Too much that I can't found a reason to hate you.
But you do lie to me.
You lied to me when I'm giving my whole trust to you
I trusted you
I told you secrets I never even told my bestfriends.
Nehh.
Perhaps it's me being the crazy one; chasing out for somebody who already has 'his special one"
So till now.
I will try to ignore you
Pretend not to think about you
Not even thinking about you.
